The Particulars of Life

Copy of an Email about ship sinking to a friend.

2012-02-24T08:19:00.008-08:00

Note: I am including this email to my friend as a record of an experience that I had so that it wont get lost in all my emails....

Last night I had three dreams within one dream and it seems that I am learning how to travel farther in dream state. I kept waking up in a dream which was strange and telling my husband about my dream in two of my dreams but my first one was a zinger!!!!

I dreamed that I was on a cruise ship with my two children and we walked out on deck realizing that the ship was sinking... it was a strange feeling. We went inside to tell someone and the next thing I know that ship is starting to tilt on it's side. Freaked me out but I was trying to help my kids who were much younger move with the rotation of the ship so not to get hurt and then help them swim out of the ships way to safety. That was when I awoke from the first dream in another dream telling my husband Steve about what happened. I wont bore you with the other two dreams but finely when I awoke from all three dreams into our 3-D world I told my husband about all my dreams this morning.

I was getting dressed to sing this morning and Steve was on the computer in his office waiting on me when I walked in and saw this cruise ship on the screen. It made me mad and I told him how mean of him to be looking up cruises when I just told him about my dream and the ship sinking. He told me to look at the writing on the computer and the headline was about a cruise ship sinking in Italy. It sank on Friday in Italy..... I didn't read the article because I was sooo upset about the picture of the ship and the experience was so real even though it was a dream. The pictures of the ship looked just like in my dream and it took awhile for Steve to calm me down so that I could go and sing....

I have been playing around with my energy just before I go to bed and this is one of the results... thought I would share...

Note: My friend responded in an email asking what technique I was using to have this out come in my experience.

To answer your question of what I am doing with my guides is....

I have been trying to astral project fully out of my body like when I do a body jump just before I go to bed. Most of the time when I work at the clinc I do an astral jump but do not fully leave as I still have full control over my body in case I need to come back. I am fully aware of both worlds and have some control of this one. The guides help move me in the dimensional travel or trance like state. All my travelling in the astral jump is done with Spirit Animals, Angels and Guides

I have been working with my guides in doing the full projection but fall asleep just about the moment I start to leave my body. In the past I don't mess with building the energy to project I just do....so this is new. These last few times I am finding myself navigating in dreams but more of a dream within dream. So waking up is not like the astral jump but more like a process of moving back to this 3-D body. Each time it feels real so my since of when I am in this 3-D reality is a little skewed as I move through the dimensions waking up. It is when I recognise that something is out of sorts that I understand I am still dreaming and wake up in another dream until I find my way to this one.

This last time with the ship I did bring back the physical since of drowning but this did not happen until I awoke from all three dreams and started to recall the first dream as the sensation of my face started to swell and lungs burning for air with these emotions of grief and anger of the loss of life burning in my chest. I don't remember drowning but seemed to go through the process of it in the water of the dream. The physical part was as bad as the grief which racked my lungs, throat and face in this 3-world. I had to move through clearing it which is why I was so mad at my husband when he was looking at the cruise article on his computer. My body was still in the process letting it go...

I noticed to that I did not have my guides with me in all three of my dreams so not sure what happened with the connection.

Saturday morning 2/18/12

2012-02-24T07:54:00.006-08:00

Last Saturday morning I woke up and was reviewing my dreams with my angels when I heard a women's voice. The voice spoke very clearly and said, " I have been missing since 2000. I remember thinking Oh... that means that she has been missing for 12 years.

It was as soon as that registered in my mind that I spoke that out loud. My husband who was climbing out of bed heard what I said asking, "What did you say?" I realized that he did not understand that I was not really talking to him and quickly told him, Never mind".

Later on during the day as I was thinking about what happened it seemed strange that ghost like to stop in and tell me little bits of information but don't give me the whole story. Only once in my life did a ghost give me details but no name and I found myself searching for her on the true crime mystery stories looking to find a clue or someone to tell them what had happened to her.

It will be a week tomorrow and I have not heard from the lady. What I have concluded is that ghost are looking for people who can hear their story or even find someone to just let them know they exist. It seems to be enough and they move on to either find someone else who can help or just need an open ear.

In this experience I understand that I I need to be more conscious in asking questions to get more details or names so that I can be a help instead of just being an observer of these souls trying to communicate.

Later in my visit

2012-02-16T16:24:00.000-08:00

As I was telling you I was visiting my family a few weeks ago and I must admit that the house they live in has a lot of activity even though it has been cleansed more than a few times. Each time it is different as ghost seem to move in and out of the house.

On one of the days that I was staying with them I was walking in the living room which has a view of the formal living room I saw a man wearing a gray suit in the formal living room looking directly at me. It was his suit that stopped me in my tracks as it was something out of the 40's time frame with the hat and all. As I froze my sister noticed me and the look on my face. When I saw her looking at me I had to laugh and described the man to her.

It was later in my stay that I decided to sleep on the couch that I ended up waking up to make a trip to the bathroom. After words as I was adjusting my covers I smelled a strong smell of cigarette smoke. It was so strong and no matter where or what position I was in I could smell it. None of us smoke in the house and my family dose not allow any kind of smoking in the house. I smelled my covers to make sure it was not them. I turned over on my side and heard a man talking and was complaining about my family. Then another man started to talk only he had a Spanish accent and was talking to the other man.

"OK, enough! Please, I am trying to sleep and put out your cigarette!" I yelled in a whispered voice to not wake anyone up. "Stop it!" It was then that the Spanish man started to talk to me directly telling me how he died and what his name was. There was nothing I could do but to listen to him and let him know that I heard him. The man who was smoking did put out the cigarette and seemed to leave the room. Finely I could sleep.

The next morning I told my Mom about what happened and she thought she knew one of the men. A few days later Mom had the encounter with the Smoker standing over her bed smoking which woke her from her sleep. She then worked with crossing him over.

The last few days of my stay was quiet with no more visits.

Knocking in the wall.

2012-02-16T16:05:00.001-08:00

It has been to long since I last wrote.... I was trying to keep a diary of my sightings of ghost but have been busy with my work during the day.

In the past few weeks I have been visiting my family and was staying in one of the upper bedrooms of the house. The first night as I began to fall asleep I heard knocking in the walls. It was not to loud and I was so tired that I really only made a note of it and then fell asleep without much thought.

During the day I not not notice it too much and forgot about it in my coming and goings in the room. It was not until I began to get ready for bed that it began again and I told my Mom about it. She said that she heard it to when she was in that room but assumed it was the pipes.

I did not think much of it until I realised one night that the knocking moved around in different parts of the room. Finely I gave up and asked , "OK, if you are a boy rap once and if you are a girl rap twice!" It stopped and then rapped once and then nothing. OH!!! how dense I was as I started laughing and in a very playful way started to ask questions as it began to answer.

I soon got tired of the game and started to watch the TV when I noticed to the right side of the room in the corner black smoke starting to take shape. Then I knew it was trying to form but I was not in the mood to communicate as I was tired. To stop it I found myself moving my awareness in my heart space and sending unconditional love out to the energy in the room. It stopped forming and I asked for some quiet time for me to sleep without the knocking and it seemed to understand as it became very quiet.

The next morning I was in and out of the room dressing in the bathroom across the hall. As I was just about the go downstairs to join the rest of the family the knocking started up again. Smiling I said, "Good Morning!" and left the room....

New Beginnings...

2011-07-05T13:07:00.000-07:00

I know it has been a long time since I have written. There is so much happening and it seems that my education has taking the fast track over the past few months... In the last six months it is all becoming so much more clearer how things are fitting together and even past experiences that I have written about wondering what was going on are making since to what I am learning.

I understand that we are like a grain of sand on a beach and we are apart of the collective which is a whole but we are only one tiny part of it. If God were the whole beach of sand and we are only a tiny part of it...How amazing is it to be even that connected to the Creator?

If the whole universe is conscious and we are only one tiny part of that then we as a collective along with everything in the universe are apart of the consciousness of the Creator. I discovered this when I was taken out of my body years ago while I was knitting and merged into a consciousness that was created out of this amazing amount of Love in all of everything. Nothing, including the air or what we consider non living was left out. Everything was and is as I know connected. My Angels are jumping up and down now saying "she finely got it!!"

Upon this discovery and many years searching for the meaning of that experience I learned that what my father used to say, "to treat everything with respect as it is alive as you and I" is the truth. Quantum physics is now starting to catch up to explain this phenomenon. Using atoms and molecular structures to help others see this as they explain how sound and light come together creating a hologram in what we now know as the Matrix.

It is said that it would be the Artist and Scientist who will help move people into the new millium. Funny, that it was the same group who told the world that the world was round.

With this discovery I have learned that we as human beings are quite capable of being apart of miracles and our own healings when we tap into the source. We are never left out of the circle and yet it is our fears that keep us from progressing and often times destroy us.

I understand to that it is the reminders from the Angels, Holy Spirit and the Creator that link us back to the orgians of our own beginning and allow us to grow in the process of our own evaluation.

Dream Time....

2011-04-07T15:02:00.000-07:00

I dreamed the other night that I was really sick and everyone in the world was sick. I saw myself talking to my friend and telling them when I remember getting sick and how it started. We all had the same thing. Next, I saw a TV screen on the wall telling everyone how sick we were and how bad the symptoms and the pain would be that we would all experience.

As I looked around the house I realised that there were TVs on all over the house so I decided to go for a walk. I noticed on my walk there were TVs everywhere all saying the same thing. I saw this man who stood out from the rest of us and I asked about him.Someone told me that the man was crazy and to stay away from him. I noticed to that he did not seem to be sick or dying in way shape or form. "He was not like us?"That was when I woke up....

On my drive to work the next day I turned the radio on to listen to some music. I liked the song that was playing so I turned it up. I started to sing along when I realized what I was saying.... "I am a Victim!"...."What?" "What did I just say?"... I listened to more of the words which I did not like so I turned the dial... Another song came on only this one talked about a Co-dependent relationship.. the next song was about hating someone. What????..

Later I when I got home I turned the TV on and was surfing through the channels. It was about power and control or blowing someone away!! Wow, "I did not like what I saw!" It was everywhere just like in my dream.........

The Meek??

2010-12-29T10:07:00.000-08:00

I woke up Christmas morning and heard very clearly "And the Meek Shall Inherit the Earth". Everyone was still asleep and I was still in that dreamy state which I found myself asking, What does that mean exactly? I mean I have heard that in church but I really don't understand."

The answer came in immediately as a full knowing that all those who are into control and power will do away with each other and the ones that are left will be the ones who will inherent the earth. "Oh I thought, this was not exactly what I think we were taught in Sunday school but I understood it very clearly.

Then like a little dream I saw as it is happening in the churches, jobs, governments, families, organizations, business... you name it and it is there. I know it has been there for some time but it is different somehow this time it is moving more like a giant ripple in the water...

Hmmmmm.... I leaned over and awoke my husband and shared with him what I just learned......

The Silent Language of Trees

2010-11-20T08:49:00.000-08:00

One of the things that I find so interesting is what I have learned about trees. Yes, there is lots of information out there about trees and the life force that they have but I found it rather exciting to learn from a dear friend just how amazing trees are.

It was one day that I was visiting my friend who has the natural gift of talking to plants and not just with her words. She can communicate back and forth with their energy and understand them. This helps her tremendously when she is working in her herbs and tinctures for healing. I have not had the privileges of this gift but have read and understood that it is quite possible as the ancients used to do this to cure those in their community.

The day that I met her at her home for tea she was telling me about her trying to communicate with a tree in her backyard. She said that it would not communicate with her at all. It also had poison Ivy growing on one side of the tree that was facing the yard which she wanted to ask it about but neither would say a thing. It seem strange that it was only on that side of the tree. She took me out to see it and sure enough it was growing only on the one side of the tree that was facing the backyard.

She then told me that a few days before she went to the museum in Ft. Worth to look at the art and then took a walk around the grounds outside. It was then that a cretin tree caught her attention and when she focused in on it it began to tell her about the tree in the backyard of her home in Arlington. It told her that the tree in her backyard was afraid of the negative energy from the back yard. It also told her that poison Ivy was a helping plant to trees and grew around them to protect them from something. This turned out to be true as later on we discovered a huge portal that was open in the backyard.

Of course I had to question how could the tree know about the other tree in Arlington. That made no since to me at all. She explained that the roots of all the trees in the world are all rooted in the earth and that the vibration of the roots and earth make a wonderful communication system. They have their own language that moves through the vibration of the roots. This means that they are connected to all the trees on the earth and know when one is in distress. They also are connected by their leaves and pick up a lot of vibrational energy through the molecules in the air this they are in touch with life and the going on with the planet.

This made me think about all those funny people who tell you to go hug a tree when you are in the dumps. But when you realize how connected the plants are to the earth and what we are doing it makes wonder how we missed all this. As a small child I used to love to lay in the grass and listen to the wind in trees pretending the trees were talking to each other. Who knew that this was all real. How unconnected are we now to the earth and the amazing plants and animals that surround us as we move in more concrete and plaster building more buildings that are mostly standing empty. What caused us to be so disconnected to ourselves and our own soul that we fear death and hold on to the things that are never perfect?

Today, I stand looking at myself and what I have become.... realizing that life is learning and appreciating what life has to offer in teaching us about who we really are and how connected we are to each other and everything in it.

Insight

2010-10-07T05:11:00.000-07:00

I was in the middle of working with a client with Reiki when all of a sudden my mind went into theta. The next thing I knew I was watching a movie with a since of knowing that come over me. What I understood was because I have dyslexia I have felt that I never really got the rhythm of life as many around me do. I see and sometime understand things in a whole different prospective.

What I was shown was that we here on the earth have it backwards. We believe that we are our bodies and we are all human beings that live and die on the earth. The real truth is that we are spirits who came to earth to incarnate in a body and we are much more than what we believe. We are apart of everything and connected to everything but have forgotten what we are really are until we realise we are spirit inside the from the body in the third dimensional world.

The reasons that there are Dyslexics and A.D.D personalities is that those are the spirits who still have that connection. They still see things more in tune with spirit rather then the mind within the body form. Think about it..... When you are in the spirit you can move and do many things at once with only a single thought form not from the mind but the consciousness of the soul. In this third dimension that we live in on the earth a person with A.D.D. has trouble fitting in with the ability to focus.

So that makes this an interesting insight that maybe most have it backwards...............

Light Body

2010-09-30T06:44:00.000-07:00

One of the many things that you will hear in the healing world is the term "light body". I know for a long time I got the concept of this but didn't actually understand what it really meant until I started to have these amazing series of experiences when I would close my eyes at night trying to fall into sleep. I would see these brilliant rays of the light that moved into my third eye that were breathtaking and blinding to say the least.

At first I was startled and would open my eyes trying to catch my breath almost afraid of closing my eyes not knowing what I would see but within a few nights of this I was able to keep my eyes closed and experience the intensity of the light. On a few occasions I would see a beautiful face smiling back at me as close to my face as possible.

I know that when the third eye opens people will have this type of experience with the light but it was this being whom I felt was very close to me that made me realize that there was more to it than that. I had the great feeling of peace and that a guardian or angel was trying to show me that they were in my energy field.

It was much later that I understood that we are all like the being in which we are all created out of light that is just as brilliant. It is the density of matter that creates our bodies to live in this third dimension world. I remember being under the age of five laying in my bed at night trying to remember where I actually came from. I knew that I was not just my body and had forgotten something very important. It was so close to me remembering but I could not recall it.

I would lay there thinking I came from somewhere else and it was really good but why had I forgotten? I did not understand until one night it came that it was not important for me to remember at the time and so I let it go until that experience so many years later with the light.

Like so many others I had forgotten where I originally came from and like many had always believed that I was alone when the truth is that we are never alone. We are always surrounded by this massive amounts of love and loving guardians. And I remembered what I had forgotten so many years ago is that we are truly the beings and creation of the Creator which has created us in his own image.

I find that often we get stuck in this third dimension but our thoughts and memories are of the the world of energy and light. When we are stuck we send out all this fear, anger and anguish
creating this energy field of this low emotional turmoil that keeps us in fear. It is when we arise above this and find that there is a higher energy field of pure love and light that our eyes open to what can really be achieved in this world.

Look around you today and see all this great fear that we have all created to live in! Then look deep within yourself and find that truth that was and is who you really are. We are all so beautiful it makes me weep that we have been so blind.

Dreams

2010-09-25T13:50:00.000-07:00

One of the biggest gifts of the spirit that some often miss is dreaming. Many know that dreams are important but with the stress of the physical day they are often forgotten or only brought up if it was a nightmare. Remembering that we are 50% spirit and we dream every night whether we remember it is something we need to take time out and investigate. Carl Jung might have had something there when he was studying dreams. Now, it is important to know that there are several aspects of meaning when it comes to dreams which can be noted under cretin categories.

Dreams can be a warning or communication with your spirit that something is coming up in the future. A few years ago I worked at a church and had a dream that someone was coming into my life that would create a lot of change. I even had the name on my lips when I awoke the next morning and sure enough that person showed up allowing me to leave and grow more spiritually. A Blessing in my own life.

Dreams can also be a connection to people that we know who have passed on to the other side. They open up the veil that separates us from the spirit world and messages can be brought through to this side. How many of you have heard or seen someone in your own dream who has passed wanting to say hello or give you a message that they are OK?

One of my most favourite aspects of dreaming is the classroom. No, it is nothing like what we did as children sitting at a desk raising our hands to speak. It is more like a movie that we are watching or apart of with someone with us like a Master teacher or Spirit guide by our side explaining or showing things to us. These are the dreams that most do not remember as it is the work of the soul.

When you are working on remembering these dreams it is best to work on conscious dreaming so that you can bring parts of the teachings back to help with lessons on this side. These dreams are extremely helpful as they allow you to understand many things that we over look in our busy lives and help you manurer in all situations. Some of the teaching are so advanced that they don't make sense in this 3rd dimension and can be confusing when you try to bring it back to this world that is why we don't remember most of our dreams.

The other day I woke up and could not remember my dream and took a nap where I was semi-conscious while going into the dream and knew that I was continuing the dream from the other night which was a lesson. When I awoke I could not recall a thing that the dream was about only that it was a teaching and that my soul got it on a totally different level. sometimes I remember the dreams and sometimes they come back when I am in a situation that I need to recall the lessons.

Dreams can be a portal to the astral world of travel and exploring. There are so many dimensions that our bodies can not go to but we can when we move into the energy of our spirit navigating with ease and often accompanied by others that we know in those worlds. Sometimes those experiences can be so amazing that we don't want to wake from our dreams. Did you know that we can visit others in their dreams? We can!

The last aspect that I am going to talk about and there are many more when it comes to dreams is Healing. Dreams are powerful when we have gone though a traumatic experience in this life in helping with our own healing when we have lost parts of ourselves. This is called Soul Retrieval and is powerful in the work of healing. This is done with the Spirit Guides or Master teachers on the other side.

Many people will seek out a shaman or someone who can help them with Soul retrieval on this side but often the retrieval can be done in our own dreaming when we ask for help. We have at our own disposal tremendous support and help on the other side just waiting for us to ask. This is something I have been in training on both sides. I have worked with Master teachers and Shaman on this side and have been working in the spirit world to with other Master teachers and guides on the other side.

In soul retrieval I have witnessed people healing in a matter of days when it would have taken them 10 years of therapy. It is that powerful and I have been through my own Soul retrieval myself knowing how quickly it brings healing to both the body and soul. It is important not to try it without some instruction as you will need to be in contact with the healthy spiritual helpers on the other side. Trust me on this...please..

Dreams are amazing and there is so much more to them than what we realize. If we only knew that we have the same power to create like we do in our dreams in this world as our whole world would change. Ahh..... but it is coming.

A Lesson in Life

2010-09-06T21:03:00.001-07:00

So one of the amazing tools that I have been learning is accessing the Akashic Records in combination with past lives and shamanic journey. These have been valuable lessons taught by dreams, Spirit, Masters and even a few teachers on this side. If someone were to have asked me several years ago if this was something I would be doing in this lifetime I would have laughed and walked away but today it is very much apart of what I am learning and helping others to discover within themselves.

I don't talk a lot about past lives as it scares so many but the truth is that it is very much apart of our Souls and our Spiritual development. It is when you step onto that realm that there are no limitations to what God and the Holy Spirit can do. You begin to have an understanding that there is a lot more beyond our own comprehension even in this life time. We as humans are limited and it is only natural to limit and try to control what is around us from our own understanding.

Learning to be in the Akashic Records and the different modalities of moving in the spirit world can be more than just liberating but causes you to connect to your spirit and soul on a whole different level while bringing you closer in a higher level of connection to God and the love that you were created out of. The Spiritual support that is right by your side and at your finger tips is completely within your sight and grasp.

Now, this does not infringe on free will or the sacred contract that was signed by you and the Heavenly Creator. You still have a life mission and lessons to learn on this world of matter and
that includes carrying out the life that you chose to do them in. Yes, this even includes your birth, family, circumstances and death.

It is when you examine your life from the outside and from the soul's perspective you lose some of the fear and anxiety knowing that you are 50% human and the other half Spirit. This is when you also discover that you have a life in both worlds living in a simultaneous connection that is linked to each other.

DNA

2010-07-08T15:58:00.000-07:00

A few weeks ago I was visiting a book store with my daughter and enjoying reading the titles. One book in particular kept coming back into my hands and finely I opened it to read what it held. I had a few dollars in my pocket and the book had been marked down numerous times. I had just enough to pay for it and the tax. Thrilled at my find, I took it home and started to read. What I found was both amazing and captivating.....

The book was about a Curandera and discussed some of the dreaming aspects of finding the spirit world. As I read I was able to recall an experience when my friend commited suicide and jumped off the gorge bridge in NM. He was missing for days before his body was found and my Mom had called me to ask for help. I went into theta to dream and saw him lying in a cave. As I tried to wake him three lightening bolts hit the ground around us and because the light was so bright I woke up from the dream.

I called my mom and reported that I saw him in a cave and thought he might be sleeping in a cave somewhere in the gouge. Later on that evening I was taking a bath at home and was washing my hair when I dipped my head in the water the saw the bottom of the bridge and felt like I was floating in the water looking up. They found his body a few days later with his eyes open floating on his back not far from the bridge... It was a shock.... grief hit me like a ton of bricks.

Reading this book I had come to a section where they were describing the entrance to the underworld after the burial of the body when the soul is free. The Soul enters into a cave in the North where the lightning is kept.. The description was like what I saw in that dream those many years ago. Sometimes the soul will try to contact you or let you know in different ways that they have passed. I did not even think of the second vision since I was so sure of the cave so I blew it off with the hope that my friend was still alive.

I realized then that I had seen his crossing but did not know what I was seeing. The dream came back in full detail and I did not remember my father ever telling me of this entrance.... The description of the cave was in the knowledge passed down in the Aztec wisdom that others that worked in dreams had the same experience. I was seeing something that was lying low coded in my DNA and the soul of my friend was able to tap into it when I went to the other side.

I called a dear friend who seems to share the same path but different and related the story with the book. She listened with great interest. I left the DNA part out and waited for her response. She had the same conclusion as I did. I had not known what I was seeing at the time but the experience was definitely there in the blood. Being adopted this brought me a little closer to my own roots....

So the question is.....If we pass on our spiritual gifts to the next generation then why are we not teaching the younger generation how to use those amazing gifts for connection to each other and to Spirit?

The Art of a Teacher....

2010-06-13T09:38:00.000-07:00

Something that has came to my attention in the last few weeks are the difference between teachers who are guided by the Spirit and those who are guided by the ego. I have discovered among my teachers a common thread and by watching their example I am learning that out of meekness comes the strongest teacher of all.

What I see in no condemnation on their students but rather a gentle way of guiding the student through a an amazing amount of knowledge and experience with loving care. There seems to be no ego or fear of losing their status of teacher. They are excited for their students when they excel, and are supportive when they fail, understanding that the students are harder on themselves.

On the other side of the fence I have friends who have gone to find someone to teach them and have been condemned and torn to shreds because of their beliefs and their gifts. What I was taught a long time ago is that a true teacher should never feel threatened or challenged when a student asks a question or has different beliefs. They know that the student is growing and that like children it is their way of moving into their own as the Creator intended so their is no need to control or feel threatened if the student is learning.

Also if the teacher is in the place of ego then they will bring fear into the teaching where as a true teacher builds trust and is supportive of the student in teaching with love and nurturing. I have been truly blessed as I look around at the teachers in my life and see that my own progress is due to their love and support and by them not being threatened by mine or anyone else's growth.

Their humbleness and joy of teaching brings out a passion in their art and one that that seems to be highly contagious.

The House..

2010-06-04T09:03:00.000-07:00

I must admit that when we purchased our home in 1995 I made sure that there was no ghost activity. I had been terrorised by some of the ghosts in our rental home, and there was a room in the back next to the Master bedroom that we made into an office that I hated to go in. Even our pets would avoid it unless we were in the room.

We had joined a little church in the neighborhood, and I remember that it was our first year in the house and I had gotten the idea from the church to bless the house after celebrating Passover. Every year I went through the house with oil praying and blessing every window, door, fireplace, and opening asking that no ghost or spirit would be allowed into our home.

It seemed to work and it became a ritual every year. I didn't even think about it until we had some friends over for a backyard BBQ. One of them brought a camera and was taking pictures. (The old kind before digital was out.) They were so excited later to show us the pictures as they had a few of them with light orbs all around the backyard. One in particular had a lot of them like they were swarming me. Other pictures had them but not as many.

Oh, I remember thinking to myself they are spirits that are not allowed in the house. Smiling I knew exactly what they were and was grateful that I didn't have a clue at the time they were there. We were safe in our house. Later on in the year I blocked it out.

It wasn't until one afternoon when I was sitting on the couch knitting, that I saw a man walk through my living room and on into the kitchen right there in full view. I stopped knitting and kind of went into shock because I was the only one in the house at the time. Steve was at work and the children were in school. My mind immediately tried to understand what just happened. I thought Oh.... I guess Steve must have come home early and I didn't hear him or someone is in the house and didn't see me on the couch and I need to run. "No"... I remember thinking it must have been Steve.

So I got up calling his name and searched the house for him. No Steve! Panic sent in but I thought of the garage. I checked... No car and it was closed. In fact the house was locked up tight as I checked the doors. Then it hit me! I had seen a ghost!! How did they get in? What month was it? What season was it? Then I remembered I had forgotten to do my little ritual that year and secure the house. The door to the other side was open into my home....

I told my husband about it and blessed the house again by the next day but to no use.... Weeks later I was walking into the living room during the week. Again I was alone when I saw a little boy sitting in one of the chairs. He was dressed in 19 century clothing and was too small to touch the floor with his feet so he was swinging his legs. He was crying. I froze and looked at him. He looked back at me and slowly faded away.....My heart ached for him as I knew something was wrong but I didn't know what to do....

Again I told my husband, and that was the beginning of a new history of the house being visited by ghosts. I could not stop the visits and after awhile, resigned to my defeat as we moved through the year and they came and went. We hit the next Passover and I decided that year not to do my little ritual, to let them come as I understood that they are everywhere... I had also learned that the house was not haunted. It was because a few of us in the house had the gift and they knew. A teacher explained to me that it is like a light that shines in the darkness and they are attracted to the light. Nothing we did or do will change that as we were born into the world that way.

Today we still have the activity in the house and they just seem to be passing on or curious about us. They have not really been bothering us or seem to need our help. Their just moving through. One other family member in our household also sees them and has the gift. They do not pursue the gift but it pursues them.

We do get a few of the dark ones every now and then, but they don't stay long and are not welcome.
I will leave that for another day......

Blessings,
Ana

Prophesies

2010-05-25T03:05:00.000-07:00

It is kind of strange how we have a stigma attached to seeing the future and Profits . It is because of what people believe that makes it such a hard subject to approach. What is funny is that people do it all the time often without a clue they are doing it.

My daughter always makes me crazy when we start to watch a movie and she blurts out the ending. The worst part is she is almost a hundred percent right and it ruins the movie. You see seeing the future is kind of like watching a movie for those who pick up on the patterns of human behaviour. The same is very true for those who pick up this behaviour when in the presence of someone else's energy pattern.

What I don't think that most people understand is unlike a movie that is stuck in one pattern of behaviour that real people have a choice to change the out come of their lives by changing the human behaviour patterns that are moving towards a certain ending. That is what you might call free will. It is when a person changes those behaviours that lead to a certain out come that will also change the energy patterns around them that others pick up.

The kicker is that those of us who pick up on those energy patterns get the bum deal as we can be branded as not being true. It was a Zoe Hagon who said that, "A prophet is only of value in telling people what could happen unless they change their ways, If what a prophet prophesies doesn't happen, he has actually fulfilled his mission."

The other thing that makes prophesies about the future hard is that often you will see people set their sights on a particular out come when they can actually make decisions that will move them to higher states of achievement in their lives. Some people if you told them the possibilities they could reach may decide that they don't want to move in that direction as it is too much work and therefore not full fill their soul contract on this earth which is an entire other subject.

Then there are those times that you try to tell people who are heading for disaster what the outcome is and they just refuse to change their behaviour. They even think that you are an awful person trying to run their lives so they dig their heels in deeper and continue to move in a direction that only causes pain.

What I learned from all of this is that sometimes the best lessons in life are learned through the person's own experience. From my point it is not good or bad and not mine to judge. I do grit my teeth sometimes knowing the outcome and send out lots of love. I am not saying that I don't say something when things get bad as I am only human but most of the time I try to keep silent. If someone really has to know I will offer the different directions that may go.

The truth be known is that no one messes with free will.....

Namaste,
Ana

Energy Reading

2010-05-24T18:57:00.000-07:00

So one of my friends asked me if I was able to read other people energy when I was standing within range of their energy field. They had discovered that they could tap into someone else's life just by being in the same room and being in their energy. What freaked them out was that they didn't want to know anything that they were learning about the other person. Too much of a burden.

I had to admit that I have been practising for a long time not to read other people's energy unless they ask me to. There is just too much personal information out there and none of our business. I used to get really bogged down and upset with people and their issues which created a lot of judgement in me making me completely miserable. And this brings up so many moral issues I can't count them...

So the only thing I could tell my friend is that they could turn it off and if they found they were getting something that they should not know to ask for it to go away. We seem to be able to turn it off and on. I was working with a teacher in giving blessing to people and one of the things I realized in my first class is that I was being downloaded with information when I placed my hands on their head. After the first two I understood what was happening and turned it off.

I learned to that I can also turn off seeing the other side giving me a break so that I can function in this world of matter. When I want to access the information there does seem to be a shift which seems to be connected with my thoughts but I don't really understand how it actually works.

I learned to that other people could access my information to and were doing it without realizing they were doing it. Funny thing is that everyone can do it but it is a matter of being aware. The really neat thing is that if you find yourself in a postion where you don't want someone to read your energy you can put up a guard. But you would be really surprised to how many people walk around with all their information hanging out.

The one thing that I have noticed like everyone else if I am really tired I am not good at reading others. It seems to take energy to read other people and so that is not the best time for me to work if I am doing energy work. No it is really nice that we can turn it off and just be enjoying our lives in this world without all the complications of being downloaded with other information. So if you are having this problem then know that you to have the power to turn it off and only use it when you need it.

Blessings,
Ana

The Visitor

2010-05-22T20:43:00.000-07:00

It was last Fall that I was on my way to have lunch with a dear friend. I was running late and in a hurry so I used my cell to call and let her know I was on my way. Lucky for me that my friend was also running late so there was no need to rush. It was right after I hung up and was driving in my little car that I suddenly began to have this familiar feeling and an image poped into my head.

Now, I guess you could call it strange but I could sense a strong old familiar feeling and remembered a place that I was well acquainted as with a essence of a cretin person from my past. I must admit that we left each others company a few years past and broke the ties of our friendship. As I was experiencing that there was a heavy presence of that person in the car with me.

This feeling then turned into me being able to feel their energy inside my solar plexus.The connection was so strong that there was no doubt of who the person was. Then I felt like they were not there for just a friendly visit but was searching for something. It felt like they were trying to experience my energy in reading me. I know this sounds so strange and if it had not happened to me I would have thought it was crazy.

Then almost as quickly as it came they left and I was left with the feeling that felt like someone walked out of the room only it was me. I went to lunch and blew off the whole experience thinking I had no way of explaining it. It wasn't until the next week I learned from a friend that the person who I had a visit from had a dramatic experience around the time of the visit and from what I gathered might have thought I was involved.

I told my friend what had happened to me and because they knew how I pick up energy they understood. But I felt very violated. I didn't know who to talk to about what had happened to me. It took me five months later to have the courage to bring it up to one of my teachers and to my amazement they even knew how it worked and what had happened.

So out of the experience I learned that yes energy can be used for many things. But there is a rule that the Masters and the Teachers go by and that is to watch your integrity and always ask permission when working with another with energy. It is to be used for healing and for good. Not to be used for personal gain or violating someone else's boundaries to find out information. That is considered to be the Black arts and frowned upon in the Healing community.

I also learned that if one is in the Black arts others who work with energy will know by seeing, sensing, or dreaming about what that person is doing and move away from them. It was once when I was in Taos and visiting with a Medicine man who told me that, "energy is not good or bad as it is just a tool. It is the person and their intentions that create the change". At the time I had no understanding of this and wondered why he told me it and now it is a lesson well learned.

Blessings,
Ana

The Link

2010-05-20T08:16:00.000-07:00

Sometime I don't think that people realize how closely linked we really are to the spiritual realm. I have had some interesting experiences that opened my eyes to understanding that there is more to this world than just what we can see.

One of the experiences happened right after a trip to visit my mother in Taos one summer. It was after my return from driving for twelve hours and I was still exhausted the next day so I decided to take a nap in the afternoon. My daughter was reading and I asked if it was alright if she read in the same room I was napping as I was feeling like I just need someone to be in the room with me. She agreed and said that she wanted to continue reading so for me to relax and go to sleep.

My dream was what most would call a nightmare which I am not going into detail with. I did however experience a murder and an explosion in my brain with a great amount of massive pain in my forehead. I awoke very disoriented and shaking. It was then that I looked over to where my daughter was sitting and noticed that she had also fallen asleep but was awaking up.

As I became more adjusted to my surroundings I told her I was glad she was there as I was having a nightmare and was still shaking. Then I pointed to my forehead and started to open my mouth when she stoped me and asked if I had felt an explosion in my brain. Looking shocked with my mouth gaping she continued. She pointed to the same spot on her head and said that she felt it explode in her brain and described the exact experience that I felt.

As we sat there blinking at each other trying to grasp what had happened to us both. I realized then that there was someone else in the room. There was this deep feeling of emotion that caught me in the throat and I understood that we were both shown how someone had passed on to the other side. It was such a traumatic experience to have the dream, the experience and know that this soul was in pain. We both knew to that this poor soul wanted us to know what happened to them and had shared in our dreams.

It was unfortunate that I did not have the experience of crossing ghosts at the time and could only sympathise. He did seem to understand that and was satisfied in sharing. It was when he moved out of the room that a great heavyness lifted allowing us both to feel relief from what had just happened. I never forgot about that poor ghost and now with experience under my belt with crossing ghost I wish he would contact me again.

As I work with others who are gifted we do something that is called Spirit Rescue and Clearing. We help those who for some reason can't find the light or are afraid of the light to cross. I have found that by helping those on the other side with love and understanding we find healing for those on this side and on the other side.

Now, there are those that are not ghost and they move through our world and torment the living and those trapped on the other side. That is another story and I will talk about that later. Yes, there is a whole different method of clearing and closing those doors that can be done and we are happy to help if you are in need...

Blessings,
Ana

The Tiger

2010-05-19T11:31:00.000-07:00

As I stood there early this morning in my yoga class in the warrior pose that my teacher had us doing. I thought to myself how wonderful life really is... I am so lucky to be able to do what I feel called in this life to do.

It was later driving home that I thought about me fleeing back home to Taos to my mother in tears to heal almost four and a half years ago. Now, looking back I am in total awe of how much life had changed for me and allowed me to do and be the person I was created to be.

So many of us hide or are afraid of who we really are and we try so hard to fit into expectations of what others believe is the truth. When the real truth is that we are all created and given such amazing gifts that we were meant to share with each other but instead fight or cause fear in others if someone is not exactly like us. It is by doing this that we cause disharmony in our lives not only within ourselves but with those around us.

Sometimes, it feels like we split our selves in half and then we split ourselves in half again trying to please everyone around us. Then we use all the coping skills and survival skills that we know when truly the answer lies within us to just be who we were meant to be.

In my "Healing Arts" blog I tell a story of learning how to mediate and trying to find that the answer that I had been searching for my entire life which came in a small phrase that day. It was something very simple, "Let go, Let God". Of course at the time I wondered what that meant and now I know. It means to relax because it is covered and all that was ever needed is to be yourself and trust.....

Wow, what a concept! Just be myself! OK, who am I? That was the next question.... then with that I discovered that most of us have been a tiger in a cage all these years and someone had just opened the door and we had forgotten how to be a tiger and also find that we are afraid to come out of our cage......

Let me tell you from where I stand how wonderful it is to be a tiger!

Blessings,
A.

The Path

2010-05-19T09:38:00.000-07:00

While driving to an appointment the other day, I was gently reminded of my dad who had passed on a year ago. But what was interesting was that I remembered growing up and going with my dad to teach the "Warrior's way" which, besides being an artist, he was also known for giving lectures and talks about following that path.

I remembered my dad talking to me and telling stories about learning how to focus on personal power the mastering of self. He wanted me to learn to meditate and to go within, but I could never sit still or quiet my mind long enough to learn so I would often drop off to sleep or walk off with something else to do.

One of the things that we did was spend time working with the animals on our ranch both domestic and wild. Looking back I recalled him teaching me how to communicate and move our energy levels to cretin points to not cause the animal fear or distress. He taught me how to track an animal and also to open up the heart and mind to locate a lost animal which served me well when I went searching for kittens.

We talked to the rock people, cloud people, trees, snakes and watched the bugs move in patterns. He told wonderful stories of spiders, creation and how the universe worked along with tracking stars and their patterns. Star gazing is a must if you live in the country without the lights of the cities.

My father was interested in energy of both the spirit and healing. He used to show me how to heal with my hands and all this was something I thought was to amuse me and keep me out of trouble. There were memories of his lectures and falling asleep in my chair with the lights on and everyone around me only to be woken up when it was time to go.

This is not something that I share with a lot of my family and friends as it is not anything that I thought important until now when I am learning about healing. It took me years to discover what a blessing I had to be learning about working with energy and communicating with animals and nature around me.

When I finely made the full circle four years ago and chose to come back to this life path, it was the Medicine Man in Taos who said to me, " Welcome to learning and healing remembering that it will be a life long journey as it is with everyone." Only now you are awake.....

Since my father was what some would call different as he followed the shaman's path of the Warriors way, and I followed my path of trying to fit in with all the other people being a wife and mom, we rarly saw each other. When we did it was always picking up where we left off as though no time had been lost in between.

Now, as an adult, I am learning that all of what I learned can and is applied to healing and teaching. I found too, that instead of following the Warriors way like my father, I am more drawn to the shaman path of the Adventurer whose focus is on love and harmony. From what I understand, the more you master either one of the two, you find it harder to distinguish one from the other because of how much more loving you become.

Namaste,
Ana

Energy Patterns

2010-05-09T07:58:00.000-07:00

Three years ago I started to work with my Qi Gong Master Teacher Martha Fiddis. It was a year before that I began to recall memories that had been hidden away so when they resurfaced they opened up a new world of healing and energy work in my life. As I look back the memories came as if I was watching a rerun of an old movie only I recognised them as early memories from my childhood.

Four years ago we had gone to visit my mother in Taos, NM during spring break and were really enjoying our stay. We had gone to bed early and I recall enjoying a beautiful dream when I was awoken with someone saying my name in my ear. It was so audible that I turned over to ask my husband why he had awoken me from my beautiful dream only I found him facing the other direction sound asleep.

I looked around the room and realised that no one was there. Then the thought came as it might be my mother or the kids who were sleeping in other bedrooms of the house so I got up to check and see if anyone needed me. All in the house were sound if not fast asleep. Hmmmmm... I remember thinking, "How strange" as I climbed back in bed. As I lay there I started to drift back into my sleep when I saw myself as a small child around the age of two and I was admiring my black patent leather shoes.

Then I recognised my mom and dad holding my hand and walking down some old streets and knowing that we were in Italy. Next, I saw myself being tucked into bed by my parents and trying to go to sleep. Then I remembered the dreams that came and screaming as my two parents tried desperately trying to sooth me and get me back to sleep. The memory brought up that the experience happened over and over, night after night as my parents desperately tried to calm me down but I would cry out in night terror.

The dream that I had as a child was so real that it jarred me awake and I began to sob these huge tears as I remembered the dream. I learned later that there are people who pick up energy patterns from places or things and the energy patterns can be replayed like a movie by those who are sensitive. As a small child I had no way of telling my parents what was really happening to me nor did I understand it myself.

The dream was of the horror of the Inquisition and of the millions who were tortured and murdered. I wont go into detail because even as an adult I don't want to go there. I stayed awake the rest of the night feeling sick to my stomach and trying to sooth myself waiting for a decent time to wake up my husband who held me as I cried in his arms. We decide not to tell anyone about it and went on trying to enjoy the rest of the day with me having flash backs.

The next evening my mom announced that she had a surprise and brought out an old box she had found a few weeks before. She started to pull out old photos and we were laughing until she came to one picture of me in particular which had been taken in Italy around the time of the memory. I couldn't hold it in and burst out in tears confessing what I had remembered and when I finished I looked at her face. There was a great look of relief in which she said, "that is why you screamed and cried all those nights." "We tried so hard to find out why you were so afraid".

It was two years later that I would return to Italy and Florence and once again pick up the energy that had haunted me as a child. I must say that even with my training and knowledge I have no idea how I made it through those nights as the land is still saturated with all of those past energy patterns. Why the Inquisition and not WW II? I can't answer that but know that it exists.

Qi gong and Reiki have helped me understand energy and how it can be used for healing. I now have several friends who are like me and that helps as we can always validate each other when we are having some kind of experience. It is nice to know you are not alone.....

Blessings,
Ana

Tribute to a Friend

2010-05-06T17:09:00.000-07:00

One of my Dear Friends passed away at Arlington Memorial Hospital on Feb 25th. I got a phone call from her sister that night letting me know that she was in a comma for a few weeks prior and did not regain consciousness. When I heard the news I kind of went numb as shock flooded my body and my brain was trying to process the news.

My husband and I had been in India for a few weeks and had just returned a few days before so I was eager to talk to her. After the call the rest of the evening I could hear her in my head laughing and talking to me. So that night as I was climbing into bed I asked my husband to not to let anything bother me as I was going to find her. He agreed and I went to sleep homing in on her voice and intention of finding her.

I did find her in a large room with lots of furniture and other people walking and sitting around talking like in a party. She was sitting on a couch with a large cup drinking I can only guess her favourite drink. I told her," I could not see her".....which she replied that, "she was there". I then said that, "I could not find her when I returned and she said again that "I was there". Once again, I said, " I could not see you ........" She said again that "She was there."

As we talked people were moving and talking around the room and someone offered me some food. Which confused me as I did not think you could eat on that side but then remembering in my training that before you made the crossing you still were able to eat until you realized that food was not necessary as it is on this side. (It is like eating in a dream it is not the same)

As I was processing this information I was waking up on this side and realized that my husband was sitting next to me working on his computer. I remember telling him that, " I had found her!!!!!!" "And was going back to talk more"! Again, I closed my eyes and homed in on her voice and what I could remember of the room. I was there again and she was still sitting on the couch.

And the question of the light did come up and we did discuss going into the light. To me she seemed a little dazed and confused about going into the light but as we talked others were leaving the room and it seemed they were going there. She asked me if, "I was going?" There seemed to be some discussion about it and all I can remember now is that I felt fear of walking into the light right now but assuring her that I would go someday and be there when it was my time. It was then that another group got up to leave the room and this time We said goodbye and I told her I would see her there soon.

This is where the experience seemed to get a little strange......... I am not sure how or why but somehow I ended up in a dream which I seemed aware of that I was not where I was before but actually, dreaming now....... I went through the dream trying to get back and finely just let the dream happen waking up again at 3am in the morning.

As I was telling about my experience to a friend they asked, "how do I know I was not dreaming?" Good question and to answer that as I was very aware of after I made the transition to the dream and became caught in it as opposed to the whole experience I had when I was out of my body on the other side talking to my friend.

It might help to think of the difference of sitting in a hot tub or sitting in a bathtub. Same kind of experience but unique and different in their own way....I am not sure that is a good example but hopefully it will help...

Many Blessings,
Ana

To Be or Not to Be

2010-05-06T12:53:00.001-07:00

A new friend asked me last night at our Healing Circle if I just started my Spiritual path in the last few years and I had to answer all my life but resisted it until it came looking for me. If you would have asked me even four years ago what I wanted to do in in my life I would have given you a hundred different answers and never touched the subject of Spiritual Healing. That was for those people. It turned out I was one of those people....

I guess self denial and hiding from one's own truth can be called a block but it sure is not good for the soul. I call it "Soul Sickness" trying Not to be the person you were created to be so that you fit in. I must admit that I have heard, felt, and seen ghost all my life. There is not an age in my memory that I can't remember not having a ghost encounter as they seem to be everywhere.

To answer the age old question, "if ghost see you in the shower?" The answer is, "yes"...and if you are aware of them then you can set limits as where and when they can come around. I used to have ghost contact me in my tub. No, they don't seem care if you are naked as they seem to be busy with other issues. I had to tell them to stop as it was my own down time.

As I began to allow spiritual gifts to emerge without blocking it I discovered that I could see these beautiful beings around people that were not ghost. I call these beings light beings and they are just pure light surrounded with more light with a head, shoulders and a long body. The feeling I get from them is peaceful and they seem to be there for the person they are around. I learned from one of my teachers that most people call them guardian angels but the teachers call them guides.

Once when I was doing Reiki on a client I was at her home and she was laying down. I was working on her when I looked up in the mirror and saw these two tall beautiful light beings on both side of me with their heads bent down toward me. I could see them place their hands on top of mine and felt my hands go down with their touch. Peace and love flowed out of them the whole session.

When we finished my client was excited about how the heat went into her lower back and she could feel it working. Then she said that she opened her eyes and I was no where near that spot but standing next to and working with the crown of her head. How could that happen? So we got to talk about the two angels that came to work with the healing.

It was later that I found this book called "Hands of Light" and in it they talk about healing and show a picture of two light beings. Since the healing energy of Reiki comes from the Creator I now understand that the my gaurdian angels are there to help.

Now, I do see the shadow people and to tell you the truth they look just like a shadow of a real person. My encounters with them are not as peaceful and many seem to be unhappy or afraid.
I have learned that those who don't move into the light get stuck somewhere between this world and the other side which makes them ghost. For what ever reason they are afraid to cross, lost or missed the beautiful light.

Well with that I am stopping for now...

Love & Light,
Ana

The Expansion

2010-05-03T09:28:00.000-07:00

Around a year ago I was having another experience of what felt like waves of energy moving through my body. They started from the crown of my head and moved through me making my body feel like I was laying on the beach with the ocean waves moving me. It was by far not an unpleasant feeling but the rocking sometimes got to me when trying to lie still so most of the time I just surrendered into it and fell asleep.

I soon discovered that I could feel the waves of energy when I was sitting still and had no control of stopping the movement that took over my body. Again, as it was not unpleasant I just allowed myself to enjoy the motions and after awhile started to look forward to it when I went to bed or sat down.

It would happen off and on through the months and would last a few days. sometimes even lasting up to a whole week and I began to get used to the fact that it might be here to stay. I had lunch with a friend and she said that she had the same sort of experience but had no clue to what it was. I asked teachers and friends what this was all about and got the response that if it was not unpleasant to just enjoy it and so I did.

So last night I was listening to a podcast that Steve my husband had downloaded for me and in it was "Demystifying the Kundalini". Of course my thought was I don't need to worry about that as it take years of practice but for some reason when I picked my program that one loaded up. I have learned that sometimes when that happens there is a reason so I just listened.

I am so happy that I listened as I learned that one of the ways to tell if the Kundali is opening is that you may experience waves of energy moving through your body that feel like ocean waves. They then went on to explain that it comes in through the crown or the feet and neither way is good or bad. It is just how each person experiences the energy moving through the body as it begins to awaken.

Wow, could this be another rabbit hole that I fell into again? As I went back through the first experience I remembered something else. I remembered sitting at my desk and having a wave of energy move through my body from the lower back up my spine and out of the top of my head. The feeling was so powerful I had to lie down feeling ecstasy raking through my whole body.... Now, I am guessing who the culprit was.. the Kundalini!

As I listened to the the podcast I learned that often people have these amazing experiences and have no idea what happened to them so they might become fearful or they may push it aside as something strange. Now it seems that more information is getting out to the public and allowing us to understand more of what our bodies already know how to naturally tap into.

How wonderful to live in an age where this information is out there. If you wish to know more you may want to go to Google and bring up brainsync.com with Kelly Howell or "Theatre of the mind" podcast and look up "Demystifying Kundalini".

Lots of good stuff to learn...

Love & Light,
Ana

The Rabbit Hole

2010-05-02T17:15:00.000-07:00

So in the last few days a lot has been happening and I am finding that I am begining to understand some of the things in my own experiences. I must admit that sometimes I find life like walking down the street and all of a sudden I am falling down a rabbit hole wondering how in the world that could happen. It is through searching, asking questions and a lot help from the angels that the meaning is reviled.

So in the last few entries I talked about the knitting experience and the body jumping. If you are new to this then you may want to read "Spirit Walking" and "The Shift" as it helps explain what I am about to talk about.

Saturday morning I woke up early and everyone in the house was still asleep so I put my headphones on and listened to a podcast called "Theatre of the Mind". Great podcast if you want to check it out. They had a interview of a Huna Shaman and since that is something I have taken workshops in I thought I would listen in. The man they were interviewing was Serge Kahili King who is teaching in Hawaii.

The interview went along with what I have learned so I settled in and was doing a review in my mind when he begain to talk about "Grok". What caught my attention was that he said that he teaches a technique called Grok which means that he has a student look at a tree and become the tree. Now, I know that people make fun of that and it sounds off the wall but I had just written those other two blogs of my own experiences when this started to make since.

Hmmm....Could this be what I was doing when I fell down the rabbit holes? So I got on the net and looked up Grok... not much but when you add Grok, shaman and king you find excerpts form his book explaining the whole process... Oh... the book is called "Urban Shaman".

And the best part is that because of the two experiences that I had by accident I totally understood how it worked. Hmmm.... To grok is to merge into that person, place, thing or element... No, not the body, but the spirit. What does this mean?..

It means that everything is made out of energy or atoms and when you can move out of the body in spirit you can change your molecular structure to merge into something else. Meaning that you share the same space and are downloaded with all the knowledge that the other has as you become one.

Sounds crazy or something in a fiction novel but if it were not for my own experiences it would not have made a whole lot of since. That explains how shaman can go into trance merging with other things while bringing back full knowledge of what ever they merged with. Shaman used to do this with heard animals finding where they migrated so the hunters could find food for the survival of the tribe.

Now the term grok is not a real shaman term as King said that he took it from a since fiction book but it fit the definition of what shaman do and he is really good about explaining how to do this in his book... As for me I not sure why I had those experiences but at least I understand how it happens... Check it out...

Blessings,
Ana

Spirit Walking

2010-04-26T01:28:00.000-07:00

Several years ago I had the strangest experience while driving down the highway with my two children. What makes this memory stick is that it happened a few more times later as if it was a reminder so that there would be no question in my mind that it really happened.

What happened you ask? Well, I am driving down the highway on my way home with the kids when I noticed a man sitting in his car on the side of the road with the hood up. Nothing unusual about that only I had this thought that I knew what it was like to be sitting on the side of the road with this great feeling of compassion and empathy for this person as it was during the heat of a Texas summer.

The next thing I knew is that I am watching myself drive past on the highway. Then there was this realization that I was looking out from the eyes of the man on the side of the road. As my consciousness began to gather this information I knew the man's thoughts and taste the gum that he was chewing. I knew that he was thinking of dinner and calling his wife letting her know he would be late with his cell phone that was in his left pocket. After that he then needed to call a tow truck. I knew to that on the seat next to him was some work that he was taking home to look at and that now it would be late when he got home and would be tired.

As I gathered the information in a few seconds I again saw my truck moving away and I realized that I was not where I was supposed to be and who was driving my truck with my children? With that I was back in my truck looking back at the man in my rear view mirror wondering what what on earth was going on. Unsure of what happened I blew it off within the next few days..... Yes, it took a few days to process the whole experience and wonder what happened...

Only it did happen again a few years later and this time I was alone and it was a woman on the side of the road and if that was not enough it happened again while I was walking. In all the insistent that it happened I was aware of the other persons thoughts and feelings. I could see, hear, think, smell, touch and feel what the other person was experiencing all the while knowing that I was not them but still me and not where I was supposed to be.

The last time that it happened I was aware that I had this thought of curiosity of what the other person was experiencing but this time I could feel something lifting out of my body from my heart area and as it was moving past my skin I called it back and said, "No!" I felt it move back inside my body and settle in. Wow, I had control of this and I also now know that it had something to do with the feeling of empathy and curiosity that I had for the other person. After that I have not had the experience again and I don't plan to as I am aware I have control and found the whole thing really strange.

It was a few years later I meet and took a week long seminar called "Vision Seekers" by a man called Hank Wesselman who was a Shaman Practitioner. He has also written a few books and had talked about experiences which he called "spirit walking". I had not read his books or heard much about him prior but when I read about the seminar I was drawn to it like a fly to honey. Later, I learned that he had had similar but different experiences and had written about them in his books. I believed him as now I had some validation that I was not crazy which is nice to have when you are on this life journey.

Now, as I am going back through this memory I have been looking on the internet and have not found a lot of information on it and in fact what I have found is that people don't believe that it can happen. I am here to tell you that it can happen and in the past few years I have meet a few others with the same experience not many, but a few. I also finely met a teacher who also knew others with similar experiences warning that it was not a good idea to do as you can bring sickness into your own body form the other person and that you may get trapped.

All of my experiences happened spontaneous, and unintentional, but with that what I did learn is that the physical and spiritual realm are held together by a thought.

Blessings,
Ana

Ancient Wisdom

2010-04-24T15:03:00.000-07:00

"So what does that mean", a dear friend asked over the phone one day last week as I was outside watering the flowers in the back yard. Hmmm good question as my brain tried to find an answer in a quick assessment of the conversation. You want to know if a person can transfer bad energy that can flow and infect another person?

The answer is "yes", but as soon as the thought moved to the tip of my tung I could hear what one of the Medicine men form the Taos told me which was that energy is not ever good or bad. It is the person who uses the energy to be good or bad and that is what makes it what it is...So yes a person with bad intentions can use it for evil or if they have good intentions for good.

Then the thought hit me so what if a person has bad intentions toward another human being then if that other person is aware of this energy then they have the ability to change the energy to a good energy and send it out for the good of all. A very good skill worth learning.... It is what is in your heart and your mind that will show ..... sometimes the whole experience is a wake up call to learn what is in your own heart.....

Don't laugh! As we all make fun of the evil eye and the superstitious attitude that the older cultures holds to. It was my own experience of learning this lesson from a person who you would never suspect of giving people the evil eye.

A few years ago I had an acquaintance tell me to watch out for this person for they would surely put one on me if I were not doing what this person wanted me to do. I remember laughing at the mere thought and thinking that that person had a wild imagination never even suspecting that one day I would wittiness that person looking at me from across the room with such hatred and revenge with their eyes.

I know that it is out there but trust myself and allow myself that if I feel uncomfortable or the energy is off for me I have the choice to leave the situation or understand that I was not meant to go in that direction.

So, Yes, I must tell you that we are human but we do have a choice and we can change the energy that is directed towards us if it is bad for the greater good. But know, If you are in a situation that is bad for you then it might be best for you to get out. If you are in a situation and have the ability to shift the energy from negative to positive still think about what it is costing you and if it is really flowing in the positive..... You have the personal power to change where and who is in your life.

Namaste,
Ana

The Shift

2010-04-20T16:47:00.000-07:00

""I don't get it," my friend said as she pounded the table with her hand. "I don't believe that the table is alive!" Toward the end of our afternoon lunch it had turned into a discussion on my knitting experience, a story that I shared with her a few months prior.

I had told her the story of the day I was knitting seven years ago when I felt so much peace and all of a sudden came out of my body. I found myself hovering just a few feet above the crown of my head and could see myself and everything around me. Then as I realized where I was I became aware that I was connected to everything and everything was connected to me. I also was very conscious that everything was made out of the same energy and was alive. Then I was aware that even the table and all the things that I thought were just things had a living consciousness.

As I became aware of this I realized that I had my own consciousness and could expand my thoughts outside of the room and to the house next door. What I found when I did this was that I could hear the thoughts of my neighbors. Then, I expanded my thoughts over the whole neighborhood and when I did that I could hear the thoughts of everyone in the neighborhood. I also became fully aware that I could hear and processes all of their thoughts at the same time understanding and hearing each thought individually without effort. When this happened I realized that this was not normal and as soon as the thought came I instantly came back into my body.

Shaken from the experience and not really sure why and how that happened I spent the last seven years trying to understand what happened to me and why I felt changed. What I came to know and understand from this experience is that God or the Creator is so much more than what we could ever imagine. I know that there is not one single person, place or thing in the universe that is separated from this this amazing source. And it is because this amazing source is alive that makes every atom, every particle and everything that is made up of it alive and full of this consciousness.

A few years ago one of my teachers asked me if I was the drop of water in the ocean or was I the ocean?

This brings us back to the table... while the table is not alive in the way that we think of things being alive in this would of matter, the energy and the source from which it is created out of is very much alive and full of the living consciousness of God or the Creator....

I know, I know, and understand that for some it is like explaining Chocolate cake to someone who has never tasted chocolate cake or snow to someone who has never experienced snow but the true shift is having to think outside of the box and leaving behind the old thinking that the world is flat.......

The Change

2010-04-18T12:50:00.000-07:00

In July of 2009, I was visiting with three of my dear friends one evening for dinner. We had been together as a team for the last two years organizing and putting together Healing Circles that helped people make connections to others that had the same spiritual gifts. Even though I found that I looked forward to the circles and friends who came to participate I found that running all the circles out of my home was taking over my family life and their personal space.

The Circles were all free and we were starting to grow so the three of us decided to meet and discuss what we were going to do for the next year. What I didn't count on was that I watched myself proclaim that I was going off for a year to study. It was as big of a shock to me as it was to them. Then I remembered blinking and realizing that my heart was speaking out loud.

As we discussed the future of the Circles we all decided that was best, and that by moving the Circles out of my home to a more public places we could accommodate a larger crowd and by closing down a few of the Circles we could better focus on the quality. This allowed me to take some personal time off to advance my studies and yet still be a part of the circles.

I was still able to organize the speakers, as is my gift, but the changes also allowed me more freedom. As I drove home, I wondered why my heart had spoken out, and that maybe I was making a mistake with all the changes. "What was I thinking when we are doing so well?"

For the first few months it seemed I was sitting on my hands as things were rolling into a change. "The Power of the Rainbow" had graciously accepted to host our Healing Circle and someone else stepped up to the plate to host another circle. Things were starting to happen and people were helping to move the Circles.

It was early September that my life started to change and as quickly as it had popped out of my mouth that July night I was suddenly swept up in an amazing speed of learning and studying. I found that I had no time for the newsletter, art, blogging, and teaching that I had done in the past year. It was all focused on spiritual learning. The mysteries that I used to ponder were suddenly beginning to make sense and even things that I had never thought of were starting to come together in both classes and in teachings.

My fear of death and loss had seemed to melt away as I began to understand some of its process..... It is almost hard to describe the things that I learned but I plan to use this blog to give my personal experiences and talk about what I learned. In the beauty of that change I began to move into another stage of spiritual awareness and awe of how perfect our Creator has designed us. The stories that I will write on this blog are all true but they are also written in my own perspective and experience.

Blessing to all,
Ana